Frankie & Alice

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Frankie & Alice is a drama film set in the 1970’s relating the true story of a young African American woman named Frankie (played by Halle Berry) who has Dissociative Identity Disorder, or DID (which used to be called Multiple Personality Disorder). Frankie works in a strip club as a go-go dancer and prides herself on her ability to step outside her body while she performs so that it’s not really her doing the stripping. This dissociation is revealed further when Frankie gets into a fight with a lover after being triggered by a doll on the floor. She seems to take on a completely different personality and ends up getting committed to a psychiatric hospital. Laying half-nude in the middle of a busy street is going to cause attention, after all. In the hospital, Frankie meets Dr. Oz, who’s convinced she’s not just another druggie on the streets having a meltdown. He ultimately diagnoses her with DID after uncovering her other two alters (names for other personalities), Genius and Alice. Genius is a super intelligent child who’s afraid of Alice, the white older woman who’s racist and despises her host Frankie. Frankie & Alice is definitely not a boring film.

I was drawn to this film because I love psychology. Dissociative Identity Disorder has long been an over-talked about topic because it’s so controversial. Anyone remember the film Sybil? I recall watching it in shock and I think that’s why it’s such an infamous disorder. The revelations fascinate people. There was shock value in Frankie & Alice, but I knew there would be and I eagerly anticipated the source of Frankie’s trauma. Not a super original concept for a film, but Halle’s acting was superb. It’s not easy to portray three vastly different people within one film and she pulled it off.

Frankie & Alice originally came out four years ago, but was only released to a wide audience recently. I thought Halle looked super young in the film and figured out why when I started researching it. Critics seem to hate the film, but I disagree with them. The film wasn’t outstanding, but I was entertained. Watching Frankie’s treatment progression, her interactions with the other patients, and her job at the strip club was fun. Frankie manages to get herself in trouble often when she transitions from one personality to the next. The viewer never can tell what will set her off.

I expect that Halle will be nominated come award season. She deserves recognition for her portrayal of Frankie. I recommend Frankie & Alice to anyone who has an interest in psychology or enjoys a comeback story.

Melanie Martinez “Dollhouse” Music Video Makeup Tutorial

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Check out my friend Jason’s makeup tutorial below replicating Melanie Martinez’s maquillaje in her “Dollhouse” music video. It’s a little cute, a little creepy, and a whole lot of fun! Jason accepted my request for this outside-the-box makeup look and he did not disappoint. Be sure to subscribe to his blog Beausic and his Youtube channel for all your makeup and music needs!

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You guys know how much I love taking requests, right? The only thing I love more than taking requests, when it comes to the blog and YouTube Channel, is taking requests from my friends! I recently got a comment from one of my earliest followers here on the blog, before there even was a YouTube Channel associated with it, who is also a fellow WordPress blogger, Asylumattendant! If you are not familiar with his blog, or his recent move into the world of YouTube, I highly recommend checking him out! He has a very unique style that I am a big fan of. He writes a lot about music and has a knack for lesser-known but really interesting artists and has introduced me to a lot of different artists I probably never would have found otherwise, (and, let’s face it, that’s saying something!) One artist that we both happen…

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Icehouse

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I did almost nothing but discover and listen to 80’s synthpop music yesterday. It was a very enjoyable experience. During my exploration, I came across a very eerie song and music video by the Australian band Icehouse entitled “Icehouse”. The name alone caught my attention. There are haunting, unsettling parts of this song and also poppy components. As the title suggests, “Icehouse” is a cold, synth-filled love song of sorts. A girl is waiting for love that will most likely never come. As long as she stays within the Icehouse, love cannot find her. That is so hopelessly sad, yet beautiful.

The music video is a depiction of a little girl’s nightmare. It reminds me of both the movie Nightmare on Elm Street and Michael Jackson’s iconic “Thriller” music video. However, Icehouse came out before both of these in 1981, believe it or not. I really think that it was groundbreaking and a grossly underrated music video. I’m genuinely scared by the “Icehouse” video, but it’s not gory or done in bad taste like some 80’s horror films. There is fire, hands reaching up through the water, many strange people trying to grab the little girl (including a very creepy old woman in a rocking chair), and a huge white cube made of white neon tubes of light. The nightmare never seems to end.

Perhaps most fascinating to me is the backstory behind the “Icehouse” song. I don’t know whether this is true or not, but I read that in Australia icehouse means the same thing as insane asylum. Obviously, that makes me like the song even more. Iva Davies, the lovely lead singer/songwriter of the band, wrote the song about his time living in a flat in an old two-story mansion that was always cold no matter what he did. Being in his early twenties and a musician to boot, he kept late hours. Sounds a lot like me. I always feel more creative at night. Anyways, the dilapidated house across the street always had its lights on, even in the dead of night. People would come and go at all times and never stayed long. Apparently it was a half-way house for psychiatric patients and drug addicts. Hence, “Icehouse” was born. Iva is a genius.

Another fun tidbit is that the band started out with the name Flowers, but changed their name to Icehouse after the release of their first album, also called Icehouse. Everything comes full circle. I love their choice. The name is warm and cold at the same time, which suits the band’s sound perfectly.

Have a synthpop-filled day everyone!

Melancholy

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This is my new video in which I get very real with you guys. It’s important to me to share my ups as well as my downs. I don’t know if I’ve discussed my struggle with my weight here before, but my self-esteem has really been affected by it. I feel ugly in everything I wear and wearing form-fitting clothes is out of the question. I also talk about my social anxiety in the video. While it’s not a fun and exciting video, I hope you all get to know me a bit better. I’m vulnerable at times. I am not a robot.

Bored at Work

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What should a person do when they are not needed in any way at their place of employment? This is my dilemma. I’m writing this while I sit bored out of my mind at my job. I never have any work to do. My fellow co-workers don’t speak to me because no one wanted my position to exist in the first place. I’m the only member of my team that’s ever here (there’s only four of us) and my boss was moved elsewhere to work shortly after I began this job. She works for another agency now, but she’s still my supervisor. Okay…that is completely logical. I can’t ask for more work because I don’t want to lose my job. At the same time, I don’t care about working here any longer. I just want to hit my six months next month, get a paid week of vacation, and transfer somewhere else within the agency. My company has a fun rule in which you can’t transfer to another position within the company until you’ve worked here for six months. It’s been a very long six months, let me tell you.

I can tolerate working pretty much anywhere if my coworkers are fun. These people have been horrid from jump street. They don’t speak when I greet them and never initiate a conversation with me. From my observations, they don’t do much work either, but I think they enjoy that. Being the only member of my team that works in a large room with these people doesn’t help. I’ve been told that no one thought my supervisor needed an assistant (me). Guess what? They’re totally right! However, I don’t deserve rude treatment just for getting this job. I’ve even asked my coworkers if I could help them in any way, but nothing came of it. So I gave up. You don’t care, I don’t care. I can sit and read all day, not uttering a word to anyone. It’s been a complete role reversal from the non-stop talking I did at my last job. Be careful what you wish for.

My supervisor(s) don’t know what they’re doing. I have one at my agency and one from another agency (who was initially at my agency). Sidenote: I was overjoyed when my supervisor was forced to transfer to the other agency. I can’t stand her. Anyways, the supervisor at my agency doesn’t even speak to me. She signs my timesheet (when she feels like it…nice) and that is the only communication I have with her. That makes me feel awesome and appreciated. (Right after I typed this, she called me for the first time ever. So strange…) My other supervisor is all looks and no substance. She’s very pretty, but dumb as hell. Apparently she’s an ex-Budweiser beer model. Yep. And you ended up in social work how…? She’s steadily pushed all of her work onto me and calls me the new her. Excuse me? Unless I’m going to get your old salary for doing the same job as you, don’t you dare say that. She was making double what I do for the same position. Does she really think I’m going to go above and beyond knowing that?

I do enjoy the freedom I have with this job. I can come and go as I please, take long lunches, and run personal errands. No one checks on me or monitors what I’m doing. I’m too scared and honest to just work from home, but I probably could get away with it. I’ve never had this much freedom anywhere else I’ve worked. But, at some level, you want your employer to care about you. I feel like a waste of space. It’s depressing.

I only have one coworker that I like. So sad. But, she’s saved me from quitting. She makes me laugh, I can trust and talk to her for hours, and she helps me with whatever crazy tasks get thrown my way. She’s also worried that her position is getting phased out. She doesn’t have much work to do either. In fact, my whole team has a light load. Supervisors have got to be aware of this and look the other way.

The work I do get is not my thing. I hate planning events and being an accountant, especially since I’m supposed to be doing social work. Driving to Detroit with huge containers of hot coffee and tons of bags of food is never fun. People can call me stuck-up or whatever. I’ve lived near Detroit my entire life. I never want to work there. It’s trashy, run-down and I don’t belong there. Send the hate my way. Most of my team works in Detroit, but I’m lucky that I don’t. I would have already quit if I was forced to work there full-time. The eight-story building is super old and I always think my car is going to get broke into. Not worth the stress. This is one case when old architecture does not interest me in the slightest.

I’m fine with taking notes, creating agendas and presentations, and organizing things. I just wish there was more of that. People ask me what I do and I don’t know what to tell them. I have to lie to appear busy. I want work to do! And that doesn’t include cleaning someone’s office in Detroit…that was total bullshit.

Now that I’m finished venting, I must figure out where to go from here. Do I want to stick with social work or jump into something new? I’d love to perform my own music in Goth/industrial clubs around the world, but is that really going to happen? I have to have a steady income and I can always lead a double life on the side. The struggle! I’ll leave you guys with some fun, creepy music…

Outfit of the Day: Cute Creeper

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I decided to film an OOTD (or Outfit of the Day) video this past weekend. I actually took the time to put a cool outfit together and I wanted to share. This post was supposed to go up over the weekend, but my seven year old laptop finally died. :( It’s completely understandable, since it was so old. That’s the only computer I’ve personally owned. Many memories with that thing. And my whole life was on it. Alas, fresh starts are always good. It’s difficult to edit videos when your computer moves at dinosaur speed and things keep crashing. Looking forward to getting a new laptop soon! Until then, I’ll just have to use my work laptop. I don’t actually have any work to do, but that’s a story for another day.

I hope you guys enjoy the video!

Too Dead To Die

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Andrey Deviance a.k.a. Too Dead To Die has crafted an electronic sound on his debut album “Murder On The Dance Floor” that can be described as both brutal and catchy. I believe I stumbled upon this guy a couple weeks ago on Spotify and have been entranced ever since. This album is jam-packed with danceable synth pop and fierce, but positive lyrics. The imagery conjured up with the album song titles is very dark, but the tracks themselves are fun and empowering. Fans of Aesthetic Perfection, Blood On The Dance Floor, and Ayria would enjoy Too Dead To Die.

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Andrey’s journey to music is pretty interesting. He comes from Russia and went to school to be an engineer. Instead of doing the sensible thing and becoming an engineer after he graduated college, Andrey decided to follow his dream of making music. I think that was a great idea. This album sounds like anarchy and anti-establishment, possibly stemming from Andrey’s rejection of corporate employment. My favorite song on this album, called “#Loud” (gotta love hashtags), is all about having your voice heard and fighting adversity with strength, not running away from your problems. Sadly, I can’t find this song posted anywhere, so I can’t share it. There are many positive messages such as this strewn throughout “Murder On The Dance Floor”.

Aw, “Nltl” talks about trying again and again and never giving up to reach your goals. Even sweeter when those lyrics are thrown against pulsating synths and followed up with Russian growls. Andrey has a way of showing both vulnerability and power in the same song. Imagine how hard that is when English isn’t your first language? My only complaint about this album is that I can’t understand the words sometimes through Andrey’s accent. I commend him for making an all English album. I wish I had a lyric book to follow, that’s all. I also love to collect physical copies of albums and his album isn’t even available in the U.S. So, I bought it electronically on Amazon. I really like to support new or unknown artists in any way I can.

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As with any musician I adore, I have to mention Andrey’s visuals. With his jet black hair, DIY skills, cyber gothy outfits, and use of skulls, spikes, gas masks, blood, and war imagery in his photos, Andrey is a lot like me. His first music video for “Another Sin” will be coming out soon and I’m excited to see these visuals come to life. You can see a smoking nun, dancing girls, and Andrey creepily holding a skull in the preview below. I can see from Andrey’s Instagram that he makes a lot of the props for his photos and such and I love that. He’s like a one man army. I think he looks similar to me, too. We’re both hot bitches. ;)

Too Dead To Die’s music could easily find its way into the music libraries of avid dance fans, Top 40 listeners, and cyber goths alike. “Murder On The Dance Floor” is a non-stop electronic assault that will get you singing along and stomping your Demonia boots. I personally use it as music for my workouts and it keeps me going strong all the way through. I’ll end this post with perhaps the lightest dance pop track on the album, called “The Only Summer”. Live in the moment and make this a great summer! And check out Too Dead To Die’s album! It’s perfect summer party music for us darker folks.