Musical Obsessions and Tumblr

I may have disappeared for a little bit again. I’m back with good music finds though, so no one hit me?

Nikki Williams – Glowing

This girl is gonna be a huge star. Hailing from South Africa, Nikki Williams has blasted onto the dance music scene with her powerful pipes and songwriting talent. She actually co-wrote Demi Lovato’s single “Heart Attack”, which was a huge hit all over the world and one of my favorite songs released this year. The heartfelt lyrics and pulsing beats on “Glowing” really showcase Nikki’s vocal range and writing skills. Love the long red tresses, too.

Avicii and Nicky Romero – I Could Be The One

I won’t lie, I like this music video more than the song itself. I really love the message of rebelling against a life that society pushes upon you. Quit that job you hate. Move somewhere new. Start over. Never give a FUCK about outside opinions. Just do you.

Unicorn Kid – Pure Space

Electronic artist Unicorn Kid makes music you might hear at a rave. Some of his songs sound like they could be in old video games. Visuals are off the chain as well. He’s a cutie.

Iggy Azalea – Work

“Work” is an anthem for me. Australian rapper Iggy Azalea shows that you can get what you want in life through hard work and determination. I can’t believe I didn’t include her in my previous post on female rappers because honestly, Iggy deserves her own post. I really identify with artists like Iggy who have overcome their struggles and turned pain into beauty. Along with being a rapper, Iggy is also a model (she’s so gorgeous). I don’t know if her ass is real or not, but who cares? She’s the shit. And I must do a cover of “Work”…

Charli XCX – You (Ha Ha Ha)

Charli XCX is probably the artist I’m most obsessed with at the moment. Her sound is dark bubblegum pop with an 80′s influence and I can’t get enough of it. Charli just released her debut album, True Romance, full of dark lyrics and electronic soundscapes. The album includes a collaboration with fierce rapper Brooke Candy, another of my favorite musicians out there right now. She is also going to be supporting Marina and the Diamonds on her U.S. tour in May, which makes me very happy. Marina and Charli look like sisters and if Marina likes an artist, you know they’re good. Charli also wrote Icona Pop’s song “I Love It”, which has been blowing up everywhere. And her fashion sense is wicked amazing. Charli looks like she just fell out of a Tumblr blog and takes fashion inspiration from Wednesday Addams and Fairuza Balk from the film The Craft. I could just go on and on. This gothy pop princess has my heart.

Along with sharing some splendid artists, I wanted to share that I have also recently created a Tumblr blog! I seem to be posting a lot of creepy cute stuff and little life tidbits there, so follow me for BubbleGoth fun! You never know what might be posted…especially since Tumblr is my new obsession. I’ll try to keep the selfies and nudes to a minimum. lol

Huggles <3

~Jonathan

OOTN: Bubblegoth Baller

This past Friday night was bananas! Bowling, late x-mas gifts, car break-downs, LOTS of shots, and hot guys sitting in my lap/grabbing my ass…say what? lol You know I was looking next level, so I figured I would do an Outfit of the Night! These photos were taken at 4am…my apologies if I look a bit busted in the face. XD

I was going for a creepy cute Bubblegoth look. Dark, but playful at the same time. Pink and black is one of my favorite color combos.

The sweatshirt and necklace are both from my Dolls Kill haul. Paired together, they are the perfect mix of light and dark, the ultimate goal of Bubblegoth. Unicorns make me happy and I feel childlike wearing that necklace.

Spike ring is from Hot Topic. I’m always wearing spikes. Partially because they look rad, partially for protection. They are sharp as fuck. Eyeball bracelet is also from Dolls Kill. I see all.

Pants from Hot Topic. Houndstooth is rad. I love the zippers all over these, too.

Bubblegum pink creepers are from T.U.K. shoes. Their online store has badass creepers in every color you can think of. The pink ones were just calling my name. I honestly want to just live in these shoes at all times.

I was originally going to film this OOTN, but I’m perpetually running late, so that didn’t happen. The funeral home down the street from my house is the perfect backdrop. I’m such a creep. Anyways, I enjoyed putting this look together. Hope everybody likes it, too! Random photo time!

Creepy…

I wish a bitch would

Dolls Kill Haul

If you aren’t familiar with the online clothing boutique Dolls Kill, then you should get acquainted. Edgy and original, Dolls Kill is for all you fashion rebels out there. They carry some of my favorite brands, including UNIF, Tripp NYC, and Lip Service. Dolls Kill sells cute stuff and some pretty dark shit, too, which I obvi love. Creepy cute is the ultimate look I’m trying to achieve. This is sort of a Pastel Goth haul, since I’m really into that style right now. Let’s see what I got!

Stay Dark Pentagram Sweatshirt

I love the saying on this sweatshirt. ‘Staying dark’ is a mantra I try to live by. Let’s see how many ignorant people freak out when they see the pentagram. haha I already know who I’m wearing this one around.

Unicorn Playdate Necklace

How could I resist? I’m a unicorn, after all.

Beetlejuice Garter Leggings

I love leggings, stripes, and Beetlejuice. So the combo really excites me. Such sassy cutouts. I can’t wait to wear these to the club…or the grocery store.

Eyeball Bracelet

Eyeball accessories are so Pastel Goth from what I’ve seen. Yes please.

Skeleton Bone Hands Hair Slides

Wildfox Couture Mort Tee

UNIF Prayer Choker

This choker is probably my favorite item from my haul. 90′s nostalgia, anyone? It’s just so me. Pink and sparkly with hearts, but dangerous with some spikes thrown in. Sadly, it doesn’t fit! I guess I have a large neck…oops. I can’t help that. lol One size fits all items can be misleading. Should I keep this badass piece? I could attach an extender and DIY the choker to fit. It was quite expensive and I’m already in love with it.

And that’s it for my Dolls Kill Haul! There were other really awesome items I wanted, but I’m not a rich bitch. That’s my only negative critique of Dolls Kill: their stuff is damn expensive. Worth it, but sometimes I’d rather make something myself or just buy a knockoff. Who cares about wearing only designer brands? So lame.

Now I must eagerly await my T.U.K. bubblegum pink and black creepers to come in the mail. They are the epitome of Bubblegoth! I’m going to do an Outfit of the Day with those babies soon. They’ll be here just in time for Spring. You can melt anytime snow. I’m ready to show some skin.

Elle King

Elle King is a super talented musician from the U.S. with an affinity for dirty rap covers, tattoos and banjos. Oh, I love this girl already.

Elle’s music blurs the lines between different genres. She incorporates  elements of rock, soul, country, and pop into her music, creating a fresh and unique sound. Elle has a voice like Adele, humor similar to Al Green, and lyrical talent like Dolly Parton, who is one of her idols. She plays the guitar, piano, and my personal favorite, the banjo. A banjo just takes any song to the next level.

Elle draws inspiration for her songs from relationships and break-ups, as evidenced in her song “Good To Be A Man”, a funny track about a failed romance. Humor is actually an important part of Elle’s music, which I always appreciate. Musicians who take themselves too seriously need to take a page from her book. Elle even covered a song by the filthy female rapper Khia, which turned out hilariously amazing. I also covered that Khia song…dirty minds think alike?

A interesting tidbit about Elle King is that she is the daughter of actor/comedian Rob Schneider (she even starred in one of his films as a kid), though she’s quick to let it be known the two are not close. Elle used her natural talent and lots of hard work to get where she is today. She didn’t get any help from her father and grew up in Ohio (far from Los Angeles), but I’m sure some of Rob’s humor rubbed off on Elle.

I heard about Elle from my rad hair stylist Kelly. Along with doing bitchin’ hair, Kelly also works at The Fillmore, a popular concert venue in Detroit. Kelly gets to hear new artists all the time and met Elle after her performance one night. I’m totally jealous! But, so happy to have discovered Elle’s music. Her first album should be out very soon and I can’t wait. I’ll definitely have to catch her the next time she’s in town. And we can sing Khia together at the top of our lungs. No shame.

Homophobia

My next post was supposed to be a fun and light-hearted piece about a really cool musician I recently discovered. However, other events have shifted my focus to something a lot more serious: homophobia. Let me dive into what happened…

I woke up this morning, looked through my emails from bed as always, and gasped in horror at a comment I had received on my music profile. I will post it here verbatim:

“You sir are a fucking faggot. Have you ever fucking took singing lessons? My dog could do better then you! Hell my gay cousin getting ass raped is better! Just quit life you raging homo!”

Ouch! What did I do to deserve than venom? Absolutely nothing. Yet, this person seems to harbor a lot of hatred for me, someone they don’t even know. A critique of my singing would have sufficed. I respect other people’s opinions and I know my voice is not everyone’s cup of tea. I never claimed to be some amazing singer. It’s just something I love to do. On the other hand, viciously attacking my character with gay slurs and making light of rape is utterly unacceptable. I am thoroughly disgusted and angered. I haven’t encountered this level of hate in a long time. Luckily, I’m strong enough to handle it. So many LGBT youth out there are not, though.

Homophobia is alive and well in the world. Just when I start to have faith that the world is progressing and becoming a more accepting place, this bomb drops out of thin air. So disheartening. First of all, I don’t need to be told I’m a faggot. I know I’m gay, thanks. And very proud of it. Second, how could you say something so vile about your own cousin? Rape is never something to joke about. It’s horrendous. I just hope your cousin has supportive and loving family members to surround himself with. No one needs to be around such toxicity. And no, I’m not going to go kill myself. Five years ago I might have. But, I love and accept myself now. No outside opinion will change that. You’re just going to have to deal with it, buddy.

I blocked this user and reported the comment to site support. I don’t want anyone else to be disrespected and attacked by this evil person. Oddly enough, the song this loser posted on is my most popular song with 88 downloads and 422 total plays. It seems quite a few people like my singing voice and don’t care about my sexual orientation…who would have thought?!

This experience just inspires me to be even more unapologetic for who I am. I will not and I cannot change. Homophobic people need to change. Or stay hateful if you must. But please, just let the rest of us be happy. Don’t worry about our lives, because we certainly don’t give two fucks what you do in the bedroom. Just be sure to use protection.

Love and light,

~Jonathan

One Year Anniversary

Wow, my little blog is already a year old. Technically, the anniversary was back on February 25, but we all know I don’t get to anything in a timely manner. I’m both surprised and proud of myself for keeping at it thus far. I may not have been consistent with my posts, but I refused to give up. This blog is like my sanctuary from the real world. And writing is how I cope with hardships.

The intent of this blog was to express myself in ways I felt I couldn’t in my daily life. I started it to reveal the real me. From crazy photo shoots to personal stories, nothing was off limits. I quickly discovered that as I opened up through blogging I also became much more comfortable with myself. I was beginning to transform into the person I had always wanted to show to the world. No more hiding. No more trepidation. I can’t quell my sass!

The Asylum Attendant persona is who I aspired to be. Fierce, successful, and honest. I didn’t like the life of Jonathan. He was too scared, too selfless, and much too boring. I wanted to escape his reality and enter a world free from restriction. This blog was my portal to a new identity. I like who I’ve become.

I really enjoy sharing my love of music, androgyny, Gothic culture, poetry, psychology, and cute boys with such a rad audience. I know my next year of blogging will be even more exciting and unpredictable.

Much love from my asylum to yours,

~Jonathan

Updates: Hair, V-Day, and Emilie Autumn

I really am terrible at updating this blog. Instead of an insightful or exciting post, I’m going to discuss random stuff going on in my life. Hooray!

So, I got my hair done recently and I must say that red hair really suits my personality. My badass, blue-haired stylist went for a brighter red this time without telling me (she knows I’m up for anything) and I really like it. I get compliments on it pretty much everyday, which is very nice. I don’t think I’ll ever go back to my natural hair color again. If you don’t like something about yourself, then change it. A little hair dye never hurt anyone. Some people don’t like my red hair, but it makes me happy. That’s all that matters.

Valentine’s Day was a lot of fun. I put on all my festive heart accessories and blew bubbles with the kids at the clinic. Who doesn’t enjoy bubbles? One adorable little boy in particular danced around the lobby popping all the bubbles. Every time he comes in he’s smiling and so happy to be there. I so appreciate his random dance breaks in front of my window. I don’t know why he comes in for therapy or what his history is, but I will always smile with him. His positivity and bright spirit are infectious. Why do adults lose that playful innocence? It’s so important to play and be carefree sometimes. I would much rather interact with the kids than other staff members. Maybe that’s why all the kids like me best and draw me lots of sweet pictures. To the other little boy who asked me to draw him a rainbow and a unicorn (reminds me of the wall art pictured below that I found at Pride last year), you are awesomely unique and special. The Disney Princess movies were always my favorite, too. I kind of wish I had done another themed photo shoot like I did last Valentine’s Day. I had a blast putting that one together. There’s always St. Patrick’s day…

Now on to the main event: The Emilie Autumn concert! Last weekend, I got to see EA live for the second time and the show was epic. Not even a lovely Michigan snowstorm could keep me away from the Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls. Alice In Wonderland’s “In A World Of My Own” proceeded the start of the show, which set the atmosphere for the descent into madness. (Emilie claims to be the descendant of Alice Liddell, the real-life girl who inspired Carroll’s books, so the song is certainly fitting.)

The show itself was more like a circus than a concert, complete with fire hula hoops, stilt walking, and feather fan dancing. Emilie and her Bloody Crumpets know how to entertain. The girls’ handmade costumes were gorgeous and Emilie went through a myriad of wardrobe changes throughout the show. I will say that I missed EA’s violin playing from the last show. I hope she brings it back to the live shows at some point. I never would have guessed that Emilie was starting to lose her voice during the performance because she sounded so strong. She would cancel a show before she would ever lip sync.

Equally as exciting as the concert was looking around at what all the fans were wearing. Plague Rats are super crafty and original…we learned from the best, after all. The girl with the sky high pink mohawk, stripey Beetlejuice pants, and dangerously tall platform boots fit right in amongst the eclectic crowd. I could tell that many people had constructed their elaborate outfits themselves. I felt right at home amidst the fabulous freaks and outcasts. I wish I had dressed a bit crazier, but I still represented with my stripes and combat boots.

I definitely went through a range of emotions from start to finish. From empowerment during “Fight Like A Girl” to despair during “The Art of Suicide”, EA succeeded at creating a moving experience for her Plague Rats. I almost teared up at the end during Emilie’s heartfelt speech to us all in which she thanked us, applauded our individuality, and gave us the keys to the asylum. She’s a class act and I left that show feeling so special and inspired. I may not feel as close to Emilie as I once did, but she’s still one of my favorite musicians of all time and a massive inspiration to me both personally and professionally. Us asylum inmates have to stick together.

Masquerade

Masquerade

Behind the labels and technology,

Frightened eyes peer back at me.

I’ve now come to realize

I’m older than you’ll ever be.

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A human emerged from the shrine

Too late, yet much too soon.

From infatuation to contempt,

Your presence no longer makes me swoon.

1

Feigned compassion

Integrity is not your virtue.

I bled to death

While a scratch never appeared on you.

1

Desperate to garner affection,

Primping gave way to a loss of identity.

Striving for your ideal

Destroyed my originality.

1

Glimmers of sweetness still appear,

Taunting me from their lofty height.

Distance would heal my wounds;

The daily axe I cannot fight.

1

Hiding within a nonstop masquerade,

You’re spinning out of control.

I tried to ride the twisted carousel,

But, the revolutions took their brutal toll.

1

Back in my personal asylum,

I slowly discover myself again.

Your spell over me has lifted

And another chapter now begins.

GARGIE Award

Who doesn’t love receiving awards? I definitely do! One of my favorite bloggers, manbehindthecurtain, has nominated me for the super awesome GARGIE award. Now, I have adored gargoyles since I was a kid. The Disney cartoon Gargoyles was a favorite of mine and I recall staying up super late to watch it (my nocturnal habits continue to this day). The gargoyle pictured above is so cute and not grotesque at all, though I love the scary, gothic ones, too.

On to the rules…

1.  Display the award badge as prominently on your site as you are inclined… if you like.

2.  Publish a post to inform the world of your great achievement.

3.  Nominate some fellow bloggers (who have been outstanding in their field… figuratively or literally)… if you feel inclined. 

4.  Indicate to your nominees that they have received the award… provided you have completed step three.

I don’t actively keep up with very many blogs (I know I’m lame), so I’ll skip the nominations. However, anyone who follows me and loves gargoyles, feel very free to accept the GARGIE award on my behalf!

Things you should know about crossdressing

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Crossdressing is where one wears articles of clothing that are intended for members of the opposite sex. (The word "sex" refers to whether one is biologically male or female; gender, however, has nothing to do the the physical aspects of a person, and is instead about how one identifies oneself.) 'Tis a perfectly harmless, and indeed, very fun and enjoyable thing to do.

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I like to crossdress. :)

 

And take slutty pictures of myself, apparently. :P