Darkling Tag


Did someone say tag?! My friend Samm Sanity tagged me to do the Darkling Tag and I couldn’t resist. Thanks much girl! Questions about graveyards and how to survive the Summer in black clothes are right up my alley. I even wore a tight top just for everyone’s enjoyment. Loves it.

I tag my good friend and fellow WordPress blogger Izzy and another cool YouTuber named Oriana Bats. I’ll include the questions below in case anyone else wants to give it a go. 😀

1. What is your favorite candle scent?

2.Do you have a favorite book?

3.Are you a tea or coffee person?

4.What is your favorite brand and color of lipstick?

5.What is your favorite perfume/cologne?

6.Do you have a celebrity crush?

7.If you had to give up the color black, what color would you choose instead?

8.If you could change your name to a stereotypical 90s/2000s gothy name, what would it be?

9.What are your top three tips for surviving hot weather while black clad?

10.What song will always make you happy (doesn’t have to be a goth band)?

11.Are you active in the arts (ex. Play an instrument, paint, write, etc)?

12.If you had a teacup or mug made inscribed just for you, what would you have it say?

13.What is your number one non-gothy hobby?

14.If you could be a supernatural creature, what would it be & why?

15.What horror monster-based super power would you have?

16.Do you feel confident or comfortable interacting with other Goths or gothy people (online or IRL)? Why or why not?

17. Which is more important for a look: Great hair or great makeup?

18.Is there something you wish there was more of in your subculture?

19.Care to share an embarrassing story related to your “darkliness“?

20.How are you at DIY?

Quickly describe your ideal wedding.

Confessional (aka True or False):
I love watching cheesy romance films.

I ALWAYS remember to wash off my makeup at night.

I sleep with plushies.

I wear non-black pajamas most nights.

I still listen to a boy band that had disbanded years ago.

I think Andrew Eldritch is overrated.

I don’t like vampires.

I don’t like clubs.

I’m dating a goth/darkly-inclined person.

I don’t enjoy graveyards.

Blood makes me queasy.

I’d sooner faint than pet a spider.

I don’t like haunted houses.

I still browse Hot Topic’s clearance racks.

I’ve never read Dracula.

I think “Bela Lugosi’s Dead” is a long & boring song.

Outfit of the Day: Cute Creeper


I decided to film an OOTD (or Outfit of the Day) video this past weekend. I actually took the time to put a cool outfit together and I wanted to share. This post was supposed to go up over the weekend, but my seven year old laptop finally died. 😦 It’s completely understandable, since it was so old. That’s the only computer I’ve personally owned. Many memories with that thing. And my whole life was on it. Alas, fresh starts are always good. It’s difficult to edit videos when your computer moves at dinosaur speed and things keep crashing. Looking forward to getting a new laptop soon! Until then, I’ll just have to use my work laptop. I don’t actually have any work to do, but that’s a story for another day.

I hope you guys enjoy the video!

Messy Life


I feel like I only blog when I have exciting news or something interesting to share. I don’t usually post through the lulls. So, I’m switching it up. This is going to be a life updates post. It’s probably going to get personal as I listen to Lorde. Damn, she’s brilliant.

My job is really stressing me out lately. I don’t feel appreciated by management and I also don’t agree with the way the agency is changing. There is no incentive for advancement. The workload keeps getting higher, but the pay is still dirt. Certain coworkers are becoming especially unbearable. I seriously had a nervous breakdown this past week because I didn’t get an internal job I interviewed for. My job description has changed and I was forced to interview just to stay employed. In my mind I know it’s time to move on. Either use my degree or do something else. I just suck at making decisions. I was never that kid growing up that knew they were going to be a fireman as an adult. I like too much. And I get bored with stuff really fast. Just because I like something doesn’t mean I’d like it as a career, either. I’ve been looking at other jobs in my field and it just frustrates me. None of them interest me. I think my parents are ready to beat my indecisive ass.

I guess I’m going to discuss something darker now. Someone close to me relapsed on drugs recently. He actually tried to kill himself by overdosing on pills a few days before my birthday last month. I understand addiction very well from all of the research I’ve done and personal experiences I’ve had. Regardless, I’m fucking pissed. When you take someone into your home for 6 months and provide them with everything they could need, it’s a huge slap in the face. It’s like he didn’t give a shit about the sacrifices my whole family made just for him. But, then I start feeling guilty, too. Maybe I could have spent more time with him, tried a bit harder to connect. Shit, I had therapy sessions with him. The helper in me always wants to take care of others in any way. I thought that I was a negative, depressed person but he’s on a different level. No one has it easy in life. Some just cope with problems better. Getting fucked up on pills isn’t going to fix anything. My family has had to let this person out of our lives. It’s horrible. I don’t want him to end up dead, but I can’t help him anymore. Fucking mental illness.

The rest of the stuff I have to say probably sounds stupid now. My body isn’t cooperating lately. This might be TMI, but I’ve developed this terrible skin rash all over my body. I don’t know if it’s from stress or weather change (though I can’t believe eczema could be so bad). I’m treating it with creams and it slowly seems to be getting better. It makes me super self-conscious. Thank god I don’t have a boyfriend. How embarrassing. My eyes are also jacked up. I’ve always had super high eye pressure, which can be an indication of glaucoma. I already have terrible vision, so I’d prefer not to go completely blind. I see an eye specialist to monitor and lower my eye pressure. During my past visit, the doctor was concerned with how high my pressure was. They used a special laser to lower it in the office, which they’ve never done before. Afterwards, my eye hurt so bad I couldn’t go to work. I just hope it worked.

In other lighter news, my hair is driving me crazy. It’s freaking orange. Nobody wants orange hair. I got portions of my hair bleached the last time I was at the salon. This was so the pink and purple dye would be more vibrant. Um, when that shit faded oh-so-quick I was left with a nasty orange color. Orange is my least favorite color. I don’t ever want to bleach my hair again. Or dye it random colors. I kind of want to go back to my natural color, medium brown. Or I’ll just do allover black as usual. I just love pastel hair, but it might not be for me.

Now that I’ve thoroughly depressed everyone, I’m gonna go. I should be filming a Hot Topic haul video very soon. Good idea? I got some super cute things. Lots of “Under the Sea” stuff. It’s prolly going to include a fun rant on their shit customer service, so I hope I don’t swear profusely. I don’t have a filter.

Until then,


Cute Clubber Photo Shoot



It’s photo shoot time! I had the idea for this cutesy fierce look a while ago and I’m happy to finally bring it to life. I think I like the makeup the best because I’m normally not that great at it, but it came out pretty. 🙂





My top is from Lip Service. The Beetlejuice leggings are from Dolls Kill. My platform boots are Demonia with DIY embellishments by myself. The hair bow is actually a bow tie from Hot Topic that works great as a headband. I feel that all together, this was a good mix of light and dark. Sexy and innocent. Bubblegoth realness.



I actually had planned a second soft grunge look for this shoot, but the pictures came out pretty fugly, tbh. I suppose I took on more than I could manage in one night. I’m quite pleased with this look, however. Putting it together made me realize that I need to do this more often. This is what Asylum Attendant looks like in my head. 😉


OOTN: Bubblegoth Baller


This past Friday night was bananas! Bowling, late x-mas gifts, car break-downs, LOTS of shots, and hot guys sitting in my lap/grabbing my ass…say what? lol You know I was looking next level, so I figured I would do an Outfit of the Night! These photos were taken at 4am…my apologies if I look a bit busted in the face. XD


I was going for a creepy cute Bubblegoth look. Dark, but playful at the same time. Pink and black is one of my favorite color combos.


The sweatshirt and necklace are both from my Dolls Kill haul. Paired together, they are the perfect mix of light and dark, the ultimate goal of Bubblegoth. Unicorns make me happy and I feel childlike wearing that necklace.

ImageSpike ring is from Hot Topic. I’m always wearing spikes. Partially because they look rad, partially for protection. They are sharp as fuck. 🙂 Eyeball bracelet is also from Dolls Kill. I see all.


Pants from Hot Topic. Houndstooth is rad. I love the zippers all over these, too.

Shoes 1Shoes 2

Bubblegum pink creepers are from T.U.K. shoes. Their online store has badass creepers in every color you can think of. The pink ones were just calling my name. I honestly want to just live in these shoes at all times.

I was originally going to film this OOTN, but I’m perpetually running late, so that didn’t happen. 😛 The funeral home down the street from my house is the perfect backdrop. I’m such a creep. Anyways, I enjoyed putting this look together. Hope everybody likes it, too! Random photo time!





I wish a bitch would 😉

Christmas List


It’s already that time of the year again. I really do enjoy the holiday season. One of my favorite things to do is find the perfect gifts for the people I care about. I always spend way too much money, but I can’t see that ever changing. Money has never been of high importance to me anyways. Generally, I’m so focused on buying Christmas gifts for other people that I never know what I would like to receive. I’m also ridiculously indecisive and I feel greedy asking for gifts. Well, this year I have created a Christmas List of things I would really love to get. It’s a bipolar list for sure, which shouldn’t really surprise anyone. 😉

1.) The Damned Lita Man Glitter Shoes

Lita Man ShoesI would legit die for these shoes. Pink, sparkly, AND made for men…can it get any better? I love Jeffery Campbell shoes in general, but these stand out. Why must they be so expensive and out of stock?! 😦 Call me a drag queen if you must. I would work the shit out of these.

2.) Snappy Spiked Sock Garters

Spiked Sock GartersI always feel best when wearing spikes. They look rad and can be used as a weapon if necessary, particularly when jealous, threatened men feel the need to attack me. These sock garters from Sock Dreams are a perfect fit.

3.) Good Faeries, Bad Faeries Book

Good FaeriesI believe in a lot of weird stuff. I’m a strange person, what can I say. 🙂 So you best bet I believe in faeries. This book is filled with beautiful illustrations and I’ve heard great things about if from some special people. Naturally, I am most curious about the bad faeries…

4.) Living Dead Dolls – Edgar Allan Poe and Annabel Lee

Poe and Annabel Lee DollsLiving Dead Dolls are super creepy cool. I want this set so bad! Poe is my favorite writer of all time. And I’ve always been fascinated by dolls. The combo is epic.

5.) Unicorn Hat and Mittens

Unicorn Hat

Unicorn Mittens

Adorbs. I will forever wish I was a unicorn.

6.) Ouija Board

Ouija Board

I will admit I have a fear of ouija boards. However, I still want to own one. I don’t believe they are inherently evil. I think it all comes down to the intentions of the user. It does concern me that this pink board is marketed to little girls…it shouldn’t be viewed as a game.

7.) Luminess Airbrush Makeup System

LuminessSadly, I have crappy skin. Oil, acne, scarring, and dark marks, hooray! A lot of the time I don’t feel comfortable going out without foundation on to hide/minimize my imperfections. Luminess seems very effective and is a product I would be willing to try out. I love makeup, I just don’t know how to apply it properly. I feel like there should have been a class for that in high school. I know I’m not the only boy who would have enjoyed it.

8.) Tripp Demin Stud Moto Jacket

Tripp Denim JacketGah, this is badass. Studs and spikes bring me joy. Without fail, I can always find something I adore at Hot Topic. I will never stop shopping there. I believe it’s a healthy addiction. I mean, I could be using hard drugs instead.

9.) Voice Lessons

MicI think I’m a decent singer. There is definitely room for improvement, though. I want to learn some techniques from a professional to raise my game. I take singing pretty seriously (well most of the time).

10.) Adam Lambert

Adam Lambert

Um…how did that pop up here?! I wouldn’t complain if he wound up under my tree this year. 😉

Now it’s back to figuring out what to buy everyone else for Christmas. It will soon be here and I have a lot of shopping to do. Hopefully I don’t end up buying a bunch of stuff for myself along the way. My poor wallet can’t handle that trauma.

Blood Photoshoot


Themed photoshoots are one of my favorite ways to express creativity. I can become whoever or whatever I desire and escape reality for a bit. I really needed that escape this past weekend, so I got dolled up and started licking skulls. lol Let me give some background on the inspiration for this photoshoot.

I based the photos on the song and music video Blood by the metal band In This Moment. It’s been my favorite song for over a month and I knew I had to do something once I saw the video for it.

The lead singer of the band, Maria Brink, has quickly become one of my fashion icons. She’s like a Barbie who went to the darkside. I knew I needed to incorporate the color scheme of red, black, and white from the video and album art. My band T-shirt was also quite fitting. Thanks Hot Topic!


















I couldn’t decide whether the lolli or the skull tasted better. 😉 I have to talk about the boots I used. I just got my Demonia Clash 430 boots in the mail the day before the shoot. The 3 and a half inch platforms (which are nothing for me :P) had been on my wishlist for a long time. I got them from this site called Sinister Soles, which has tons of other amazing gothic boots and shoes. And my skeleton necklace is too adorable not to highlight here.




























So, that’s what I was up to this past weekend. I know I’ve been a bit of a mess as far as updating this blog. But, please know that I highly appreciate anyone who takes the time to be a part of this crazy reality I dwell in. I haven’t forgotten about any of my readers and I promise to start connecting with you all again. You guys allow me to be myself, free from judgment, and that seriously means everything to me. Lots of LOVE. ❤


Hot Topic Haul


I’m slightly embarrassed to admit that Hot Topic is one of my favorite stores to shop at. But, obviously that didn’t stop me from recently buying $400 worth of stuff there. Let me show you my haul!

Unboxing goodies is so exciting! I love getting packages in the mail.


~WARPAINT Frost Bite Eye Kohl Pen: $1.99

~WARPAINT Bubblegum Lip Syrup: $1.99

~WARPAINT Party Pink Shimmer Eye Shadow: $1.99

~WARPAINT Grimace Lip Gloss: $1.99

~Manic Panic Immortal (Black) Nail Polish: $5.00


~Color Fiend Hot Pink Temporary Comb In Color: $1.99

~Color Fiend Electric Blue Temporary Comb In Color: $1.99

~Pink Bling Bow Hair Clips: $5.25

~Bling Skull Chain Headband: $4.75


~The Nightmare Before Christmas Bat Bling Necklace: $3.99

~Large Silver Link Heart Necklace: $18.50

~Too Fast Corset Cameo Scissor Necklace: $29.50


~Too Fast Spider Web Ring: $3.25

          Other Accessories

~Black/Red Corset Wrist Cuff: $12.50

~Lip Service Black Vinyl Cone Stud Zip Wallet: $16.98

~Sailor Moon Brooch: $12.50

      ~Skull Chain Belt: $19.50

       ~Neon Hotpink Fishnet Tights: $8.00

JET Blue Distressed Large Pyramid Stud Cut-Off Short Shorts: $24.50

Skull Zipper Bandeau Bra: $9.50

Rainbow Tulle Petticoat: $19.50 (It doesn’t fit! Why must I have large thighs? Should I get super ghetto and cut the elastic to make it fit? Or return it? It’s just so pretty!)

Ke$ha Electric Tiger T-Shirt: $8.97 (I’ll get sleazy for a super cheap shirt)

Lip Service Blacklist Ruffle Shrug: $39.50

Lip Service Black Safety Pin Cold-Shoulder Top: $34.50

Teenage Runaway Royal Blue Pyramid Stud Top: $26.50

I also bought my sister a DVD for her birthday. I justified buying tons of crap for myself by getting her something. Who doesn’t love Adventure Time though?

Guilty Pleasures


We all have them. Here are some of mine. 😉

Britney SpearsTeen pop music at its finest. I’ve loved her since I was quite young. You can’t get her songs out of your head.

Popcorn – I eat entire bags at a time. The more butter the better. Don’t dare ask me to share. Not happening.

Fishnet – I know fishnet can be trashy, but I just love it. I manage to pair it with anything I’m wearing.

16 and Pregnant/Teen Mom – These shows are so entertaining. I even wrote a huge paper on them for a college class. I’m not obsessed or anything…

Singing in the car – This happens all the time. I sing loud, too. Who wants to hear the actual singer anyways?

Hot Topic – I’ve shopped there for forever. I still walk in and want to buy everything I see. I plan on doing a huge haul from here soon, so keep an eye out for that. 😉

Aqua – Remember the song “Barbie Girl”? Well, the group behind the song is the shit. They don’t take themselves too seriously and it’s fun to bounce around to their music.

Mean Girls – The best movie ever. I think I have it memorized at this point. That’s a little embarrassing.

So, what are your guilty pleasures?

Be Mine?


I know Valentine’s Day was last month and all, but I did a themed photoshoot that I think needs to be seen. Now, I never thought I would be so excited to do a holiday-themed shoot. But, I thought about how I could twist the love theme into something darker. Everyone knows what it feels like to be rejected by someone you love. This rejection can make a person act a little crazy/jealous. This was the direction I was going.

The story in my head is as follows: My boyfriend just broke up with me at the homecoming dance. I won the crown and he had to go and ruin it. Naturally, I cried and ruined my perfect makeup. And after I was done crying, I decided it was time for revenge. This is when I lost my damn mind.

I go all-out when it comes to visuals. I figure I might as well go crazy with it if I’m just having fun. With this shoot, I was actually pretty organized for once and laid all of my props and clothing out beforehand. I played up the pink, red, and white for sure. This was a themed shoot after all.

This pink wig was the star of the shoot. I’ve always wanted pink hair so why not? I got it for super cheap at Hot Topic and it’s actually a Nicki Minaj wig. Hot Topic has cheaply made clothes, but they have great accessories and jewelry. The inner 14-year-old rebel in me will not allow me to stop shopping there. haha

The red lace arm warmers were actually children’s tights that I found at the Salvation Army and cut apart.

I got the cool running makeup look by making my eyes water with eyedrops and rubbing eyeshadow around.

I usually end up doing shoots super late at night because I’m nocturnal. Plus, I feel extra creepy the later it is. Well, near the end of my shoot (at like 4:30am), all of the fire detectors in my entire house decided to go off. It was so loud and unexpected that I almost had a heart attack. I decided to wrap the shoot up at that point. I’m all about signs and the universe wasn’t being subtle this time. 😉

This last picture is my favorite of the bunch. I feel like I lucked into it. It’s so deranged and cute at the same time. Disclaimer: No stuffed animals were injured/hurt as a result of this photoshoot. (A little nibble never hurt anyone…)

I got the gothic tears idea from Adora BatBrat. Love that girl.

Last but not least, if you need to get another fix of weirdness (and you know you do after these creepy photos), then you should creep on over to The Man Behind The Curtain’s blog. You better do it, or I will eat all of your stuffed animals. I obviously have an eating disorder…