Happy Holidays!


Happy holidays everyone! I hope you’re all having great times with friends and family. I had a wonderful Christmas and I am thoroughly enjoying a nice long break from work. To celebrate the festive season, I wanted to record a Christmas cover this year. I was researching which song I wanted to cover and came across an Erasure classic called “She Won’t Be Home”. I’d never heard the song before, but instantly become entranced by the melancholy lyrics and synthy goodness. Plus, I adore Erasure, so it was a no brainer to take this on. The recording process was quite interesting. First, I wanted to finish it before Christmas. That didn’t happen. When I finally went to start recording vocals, I noticed that my computer wasn’t recognizing my professional microphone. I did some research and found out that the Windows 10 update could be the culprit. Whatever I tried, I couldn’t get the mic to work and ended up accidentally breaking it. Hooray! Granted, the mic was probably five years old, but I loved it and that sucks. So, I was forced to record my vocals trashy style on my camera. Please excuse the imperfect quality. Also, my vocals fall behind the music at the end. It’s annoying and editing was a bitch. Anyways, I hope you guys like it. At least I look cute, right? lol

I just got my hair done as well. I’m dyeing it colors according to holidays (I got the idea from LeahMouse on YouTube), so I picked pink for Valentine’s Day. I’m bringing the Gothic My Little Pony look back! I seriously love the color. I thought the makeup I paired with the new hair was pretty, too.



My family is doing really well and I’m taking a voluntary demotion at work to decrease my stress levels in the new year. 2016 was truly an insane year and I learned a lot about myself and the quality of life I want. I’m exploring career options outside of my field of study and freelance writing gigs that pay since I’m taking a pay cut along with my demotion. I realize that I’m at a dead end in my current job and I’m ready for something new. I was offered a supervisory position, but I really have no desire to supervise people. I’ve found that people just don’t work as hard as me or care as much as I do and it really bothers me, so I don’t need the headache. I’m going to be a bit selfish and look out for myself first and foremost in 2017.

Last month, I met one of my favorite music artists of all time, Jennifer Parkin from the group Ayria! Her show was phenomenal and I danced and sang my ass off to all of my favorite songs. We shared a heart to heart after the show. I told her what an inspiration she was to me and how her music got me through some tough times. My teenage years were a trip, let me tell you! She encouraged me to keep working toward my dream of becoming an artist like her. Jennifer was super sweet and I’ll always treasure this night.


Me and Jennifer! Ignore the fact that I look like a sweaty puffy coke whore. 😛


Baddie alert! Me and my bestie Ali.


The Cybergoth concert look. Jennifer loved my sparkly jewelry.

My family adopted a couple of families in need for Christmas this year. It was so much fun to shop for the kids and it’s one of my favorite things to do for the holidays. I enjoy giving gifts so much more than receiving them. I did get some really awesome gifts as well. A new bookcase for my office, an electric fireplace to fix the drafty back room of my house and my Nightmare Before Christmas hoodie that I wore in my Christmas cover video. My sister knows me too well! I got my technologically challenged dad a tablet and he hasn’t put it down since Christmas. haha

I always have some new music artist discoveries to share. I seem to have fallen back into a Swedish Pop obsession and I kinda love it. The Swedes just do Pop best, I’m sorry! Dolly Style is a sickeningly sweet trio with influences from Japanese cultures like Lolita and Fairy Kei. Their names are Molly, Holly and Polly and I can’t get their songs or fashion out of my head. One of them (Polly with the purple hair) even looks like a BubbleGoth doll. I can’t!

I’m really addicted to Swedish Idol contestant Charlie Grönvall. I think I stumbled upon one of his videos after a Dolly Style video. I’m sort of superficial and when I saw his emo glam look complete with painted nails, black fringe and eyeliner I melted. He totally reminds me of Adam Lambert. I guess his grandfather is a member of the legendary Swedish group ABBA and his parents are both famous singers as well. Now, it usually bothers me when people with famous family members come on competition shows because I question their motives. That’s not the case with Charlie. He comes off as super genuine and you can feel his love for music. He’s been in a couple of other bands over the years (Bracelet and Little Great Things) and the music is really great. Sadly, he came in third place in the competition, but I’m sure he’ll have a successful career. I’m already planning a trip to Sweden to abduct him.

I hope everyone is pumped for 2017! It has to be a better year than 2016, right!? I’ve watched so many bloggers give up on their blogs during my five years on WordPress and it’s really sad. Some have disappeared and we’ve completely lost touch. I don’t want to be one of those people. Blogs might be a dying art form with attention spans diminishing and instant gratification on the rise, but sharing my life in writing is so therapeutic to me. I love to read about other people’s adventures and challenges as well. Never give up!

I’m excited to create more music, continue writing for Carpe Nocturne, make some career moves, and share it all with you! This is just the beginning.

Much love,

~Asylum Attendant

Cute Clubber Photo Shoot



It’s photo shoot time! I had the idea for this cutesy fierce look a while ago and I’m happy to finally bring it to life. I think I like the makeup the best because I’m normally not that great at it, but it came out pretty. 🙂





My top is from Lip Service. The Beetlejuice leggings are from Dolls Kill. My platform boots are Demonia with DIY embellishments by myself. The hair bow is actually a bow tie from Hot Topic that works great as a headband. I feel that all together, this was a good mix of light and dark. Sexy and innocent. Bubblegoth realness.



I actually had planned a second soft grunge look for this shoot, but the pictures came out pretty fugly, tbh. I suppose I took on more than I could manage in one night. I’m quite pleased with this look, however. Putting it together made me realize that I need to do this more often. This is what Asylum Attendant looks like in my head. 😉


Makeup Tutorial: Klaus Nomi












I’m not very good with makeup. But, when I found out about New Wave singer Klaus Nomi, I knew I had to try and re-create his signature look. It’s definitely not subtle. 😉

Let’s start with the products I used:

~Manic Panic Goth White Powder Cream Foundation

~Black Eyeliner

~Lip Balm

~Hot Topic Black Lip Gloss

~Hair gel

~Lots of hair spray

Step 1: Face

Apply the Goth White foundation over your entire face. I just used my fingers because I’m trashy and unprofessional like that. The foundation itself is a cream, but it sets like a powder. It actually feels good on your face and covers well.

Step 2: Eyes

This is where the black eyeliner comes in. I really love black eyeliner. It just has so many uses. Klaus makes interesting use of eyeliner in his look. I applied the eyeliner to my bottom lashline and waterline. Klaus did not wear eyeliner on his top lashline, so I didn’t apply any there either. He also applied the eyeliner in a strange location: just above the eyelid in a half circle. I would say this was the hardest part of the tutorial for me. It was pretty hard to draw a perfect semicircle and it didn’t turn out great, but whatever. I can’t be bothered with perfection! 😛 I was not about to shave off my eyebrows like Klaus. Razors close to my eyes scare me and I like my eyebrows too much. haha

Step 3: Lips

My trick to the perfect black lip: eyeliner. I have tried black lipsticks and glosses, but they all end up being crap. And I hear that from other people as well. So eyeliner it is! Before I put on the eyeliner, I rub on a layer of lip balm. This will keep your lips from drying out due to the eyeliner. Next comes the eyeliner. I used a black lip gloss over top of the eyeliner since I like a glossy lip, but Klaus preferred the matte look.

Step 4: Hair

I knew that I wanted to include hair in this tutorial because it really completes the look. Klaus had a receding hairline and crazy hair that stuck straight up. Thankfully, I do NOT have a receding hairline (I will cry if it ever happens!). To get my hair to stick straight up I used some gel and a ton of hairspray. Normally I dislike using any hair products other than shampoo as my hair gets oily super fast. This was an exception, though. Which hairstyle do you like better?

Now it’s time for random photos!




















I definitely enjoyed spending hours on this look. Klaus Nomi was a tremendous talent who left the world far too soon. His music, persona, and style will live on forever.

I also wanted to include this tutorial I came across. Everyone loves Nomi! 😀