An Explanation

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I don’t really know what to say. I can’t believe how much time has passed since my last post. I took a break from blogging for personal reasons and it seems I left for good. I can’t even really say that I’m back for good either. But, I feel like I owe my friends an explanation for my absence. So, I decided to record the video above. The video is raw and very real. I’ve missed my fellow bloggers so much and I haven’t forgotten about any of you. Sometimes I go into a cocoon to protect myself and recharge when horrible, stressful things happen. That may not be a healthy coping mechanism, but it’s how I survive. I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings with all of you, the people I know truly understand me. I feel much better breaking the silence, even if that makes me vulnerable. I hope my honesty makes up for my absence.

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I made a Steampunk top hat in the Spring…super proud of it!

Things aren’t all doom and gloom, though. I wanted to record a fun, spooky video for you guys as well. Last year, Samm Sanity nominated me for the Halloween Tag and I never got around to doing it. Well, I finally did! Watch my struggle with fake nails and sassy mouth below. lol

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Don’t forget that orange and black hurr for Halloween, gurl.

I have so many exciting things to share with you all. Just know that I’m always here, whether I post or not. You guys have helped to make this my home and I’ll never forget that. I’ll leave you with an acapella video of me singing a song for a competition I auditioned for over the summer. I didn’t make it into the competition, but I’m just proud of myself for having the balls to audition. And I think I’ll take another crack at this song soon. 😉 Voice lessons are so much fun and have really improved my confidence and vocal range!  Happy Halloween!!!

 

Lady Gaga Cover

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A new song cover and music video after almost a year? That’s right! Lady Gaga is actually a big inspiration to me and “Poker Face” is my favorite one of her songs. The vibe of it is dark and sexual, which is really appealing. I had a clear vision for the music video. I wanted to show off my two very different sides: the normal me that I portray at work every day and the eccentric artist I transform into. I think this might be the first time I’m sharing both of the worlds I inhabit. Some of you may have never seen the subdued me before, but that’s what I show to society most of the time. The normal persona is my poker face. Most people never get to see the makeup, the fashion and the glam. Which side do you prefer? I really love that this song touches on bisexuality. My sexuality is a substantial part of who I am and showing it in a playful way is quite fun. This is also the first video I’ve filmed in my new house, so you get to see some of my humble abode. You can download the cover for free on my Soundcloud page below.

More music is soon to come! I think I’ll try a ballad next. I can be serious sometimes. 😉 I also have new posts on a hair dye review and my house transformation in the works. Happy Spring!

Photographic (Depeche Mode Cover)

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Surprise! Guess who’s making music again in a big way?! I knew my first music video and return to music would be a Depeche Mode cover and I made it happen. “Photographic” is dark and robotic, the perfect soundtrack to an 80’s horror film. The synths are insane. I spent a lot of time recording vocals and filming/editing the video. You can see me arm dance, randomly adopt a British accent and bring out my inner Britney Spears. Yes, she’s responsible for any slut that jumps out of me. The process was so much fun. I sing and dance all the time in my bedroom. This video is simply that with a camera on.

You can download the cover for free on my Soundcloud page. I really hope everyone enjoys this. I’ll probably record a more modern song next time with just as much synth action and potentially less clothes. 😉