I finally filmed some of the stuff I got for my birthday and on my vacation in Frankenmuth. Watch me murder the Spanish language, discuss bad behavior at rue21 and share my skull obsession!
I finally filmed some of the stuff I got for my birthday and on my vacation in Frankenmuth. Watch me murder the Spanish language, discuss bad behavior at rue21 and share my skull obsession!
It’s photo shoot time! I had the idea for this cutesy fierce look a while ago and I’m happy to finally bring it to life. I think I like the makeup the best because I’m normally not that great at it, but it came out pretty. 🙂
My top is from Lip Service. The Beetlejuice leggings are from Dolls Kill. My platform boots are Demonia with DIY embellishments by myself. The hair bow is actually a bow tie from Hot Topic that works great as a headband. I feel that all together, this was a good mix of light and dark. Sexy and innocent. Bubblegoth realness.
I actually had planned a second soft grunge look for this shoot, but the pictures came out pretty fugly, tbh. I suppose I took on more than I could manage in one night. I’m quite pleased with this look, however. Putting it together made me realize that I need to do this more often. This is what Asylum Attendant looks like in my head. 😉
I both love and loathe shopping. I love hunting for clothes that fit my style perfectly: a little creepy, a little cute. There’s great satisfaction in finding awesome items. However, I despise the rigid gender norms present in almost all clothing stores.
Now, there was a time when I solely wore men’s clothing. I never even entertained the idea of wearing women’s clothing. And why would I? Crossdressing is still taboo in most parts of the world. Parents certainly aren’t going to encourage their kids to explore the world of gender-bending. What would society think, after all? I followed the norm like everyone else.
At a point, I found myself wanting to experiment with feminine clothing. Some obstacles came with this decision, though:
1.) Weird looks from other shoppers
~ Being the only guy in the women’s clothing department can be awkward. I get many strange looks, which aren’t fun. I can’t say I blame the shoppers for their reactions. However, it’s fucking rude. Gawking at anyone for whatever reason is beyond rude. The stares, in turn, make me very uncomfortable and ruin a bit of the shopping experience. I’m not some pervert touching all the sexy lingerie to get off. I just want to buy some pretty heels because they make me happy. I don’t think most people make that connection. They are too stuck on the shock of it all. Some crossdress as a sexual fetish, but plenty of others just partake in it to express how they feel on the inside. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with expressing your femininity through fashion. People’s opinions need to change, not those who crossdress themselves.
2.) Things don’t fit
~ With a shoe size of 10 and a height of 5’10”, women’s clothing isn’t really geared for me. Finding cute shoes isn’t easy. I’m not Paris Hilton (sadly), so I can’t afford to pay someone to make me custom heels. I suppose I could go shop in a drag store, but I don’t consider myself a queen. I’ve actually had to return clothes that were too small for me because I bought them without even checking if they were in women’s or men’s sizes first. (Thanks Hot Topic :P) If I see something pretty, then I buy it. Luckily, jewelry always fits, so I can purchase all the sparkly things I want. I actually have very feminine hands with long fingers, so I love wearing rings. My mom hates my fingers, but hey, that’s genetics. 😉
3.) The men’s clothing section bores me
~ It always seems like the men’s clothing section is smaller than the women’s section. This means that the available options are limited. I enjoy being unique. I have no desire to look like everyone else. I’m not trying to prove anything. I just dress how I feel in things I like. Three types of pants and variations of the same shirt in muted colors don’t entice me. I do find men’s clothes I love, but not enough of them to fill my wardrobe with. Fashion is limitless, so why limit my style? The men’s section has cute stuff, but The Little Mermaid leggings over yonder are screaming my name. And I’m not going to deny myself. Ariel is a legit fashion inspiration for me. When I get bored shopping in the men’s department, I can just hop over to the women’s section. Totally the best of both worlds. Mixing feminine and masculine clothing is really fun to do.
My remedy to these obstacles has been online shopping. I can find extended sizes in clothing and shoes. I also don’t have to deal with haters and their disapproving attitudes. Win win. 🙂
I think I’ll end this post with some pictures of stuff I bought on my last shopping spree.
I harassed a cute store employee until he found this shirt for me. I wasn’t leaving without it. It’s so scene.
Belt and bracelet found in the ladies department. All my studded belts are broken from wearing them too much, so I needed a new one. And 99 cents for Frankenstein…hells yeah!
New swimsuit. Not that I swim. Or would be caught dead topless. I don’t know why people keep assuming I bought a Speedo when I tell them I got a new swimsuit. haha Do I seriously come off that slutty?
Tie dye and skulls. For those grunge days.
This past Friday night was bananas! Bowling, late x-mas gifts, car break-downs, LOTS of shots, and hot guys sitting in my lap/grabbing my ass…say what? lol You know I was looking next level, so I figured I would do an Outfit of the Night! These photos were taken at 4am…my apologies if I look a bit busted in the face. XD
I was going for a creepy cute Bubblegoth look. Dark, but playful at the same time. Pink and black is one of my favorite color combos.
The sweatshirt and necklace are both from my Dolls Kill haul. Paired together, they are the perfect mix of light and dark, the ultimate goal of Bubblegoth. Unicorns make me happy and I feel childlike wearing that necklace.
Pants from Hot Topic. Houndstooth is rad. I love the zippers all over these, too.
Bubblegum pink creepers are from T.U.K. shoes. Their online store has badass creepers in every color you can think of. The pink ones were just calling my name. I honestly want to just live in these shoes at all times.
I was originally going to film this OOTN, but I’m perpetually running late, so that didn’t happen. 😛 The funeral home down the street from my house is the perfect backdrop. I’m such a creep. Anyways, I enjoyed putting this look together. Hope everybody likes it, too! Random photo time!
I wish a bitch would 😉
If you aren’t familiar with the online clothing boutique Dolls Kill, then you should get acquainted. Edgy and original, Dolls Kill is for all you fashion rebels out there. They carry some of my favorite brands, including UNIF, Tripp NYC, and Lip Service. Dolls Kill sells cute stuff and some pretty dark shit, too, which I obvi love. Creepy cute is the ultimate look I’m trying to achieve. 😉 This is sort of a Pastel Goth haul, since I’m really into that style right now. Let’s see what I got!
Stay Dark Pentagram Sweatshirt
I love the saying on this sweatshirt. ‘Staying dark’ is a mantra I try to live by. Let’s see how many ignorant people freak out when they see the pentagram. haha I already know who I’m wearing this one around.
Unicorn Playdate Necklace
How could I resist? I’m a unicorn, after all.
Beetlejuice Garter Leggings
I love leggings, stripes, and Beetlejuice. So the combo really excites me. Such sassy cutouts. I can’t wait to wear these to the club…or the grocery store.
Eyeball accessories are so Pastel Goth from what I’ve seen. Yes please.
Skeleton Bone Hands Hair Slides
Wildfox Couture Mort Tee
UNIF Prayer Choker
This choker is probably my favorite item from my haul. 90’s nostalgia, anyone? It’s just so me. Pink and sparkly with hearts, but dangerous with some spikes thrown in. Sadly, it doesn’t fit! I guess I have a large neck…oops. I can’t help that. lol One size fits all items can be misleading. Should I keep this badass piece? I could attach an extender and DIY the choker to fit. It was quite expensive and I’m already in love with it.
And that’s it for my Dolls Kill Haul! There were other really awesome items I wanted, but I’m not a rich bitch. That’s my only negative critique of Dolls Kill: their stuff is damn expensive. Worth it, but sometimes I’d rather make something myself or just buy a knockoff. Who cares about wearing only designer brands? So lame.
Now I must eagerly await my T.U.K. bubblegum pink and black creepers to come in the mail. They are the epitome of Bubblegoth! 😀 I’m going to do an Outfit of the Day with those babies soon. They’ll be here just in time for Spring. You can melt anytime snow. I’m ready to show some skin. 😉
Bunny Meyer (Grav3yardgirl on Youtube) is the sassiest beauty vlogger around. She hails from the swamps of Texas and loves all things creepy, from graveyards and ghosts to strange old photographs. Bunny’s Christmas tree is even Halloween themed, which is something I would do. She loves beauty and fashion as well, but Bunny isn’t your typical beauty guru. She’ll be the first to admit that she doesn’t think she’s talented with makeup. Bunny surely breaks the mold with her goofy antics and alligator obsession.
Along with her lovable personality, I admire Bunny’s fashion sense. I would love to raid her closet and
steal borrow all of the cool clothes she owns. Bunny shares my skull and spike obsession. Some would say she’s a hipster, but Bunny’s style could be anything from Grunge to Nu Goth depending on the day. She finds the best stuff from thrift stores. And she alters a lot of the things she buys to make them even more epic. DIY makes anything better.
I can really relate to the story behind Bunny’s Youtube channel. She suffers from anxiety and depression, which is nothing new for me. Before making videos, Bunny used to jump in her car and drive around for extended periods of time in the middle of the night when her anxiety would surface. That’s clearly not a healthy coping mechanism. So, a friend suggested Bunny should start making videos to quell her anxiety. It worked and Bunny’s been at it ever since. I, too, find that creativity drives away my depression and anxiety. That’s really why I started this blog. Okay, I also started blogging as an excuse to post sexay photos of myself, but that’s not the point…;-)
Bunny encourages individuality and acceptance among her fans, known as the Swamp Family. She embraces her flaws and quirks without hesitation. Bunny is an awesome role model with a stunning collection of Jeffrey Campbell shoes. She’s certainly inspired me to stay strange and keep it extra sassy. And to never ever be ashamed of drinking tea like a Muppet. I use her lingo all the time in real life and no one ever gets the references. It’s all good because I just come off super original. Yay for Bunny!
I’ve got a slight crush on French fashion designer/photographer Valentin Perrin. While he’s completely adorable, Valentin is also extremely talented. His photos are amazing and his couture designs are flawless. We also share the same taste in fashion. So why did I not know of him sooner?!
Valentin is totally the male version of Emilie Autumn. All the stripes, tea, and red hair really remind me of her. My own style is heavily influenced by Emilie, so I see a lot of myself in Valentin. I’m always attracted to pale, skinny, feminine guys and this is no exception. I like them creepy, too. I’ve also been known to do some weird stuff with stuffed animals…
As a designer, Valentin is superb. Not many people can create clothes as gorgeous as these.
Another cute boy, Thomas Vitriol, works with Valentin and is also a singer. Gotta put in a picture of him, too. 😉
You can check out more about Thomas and Valentin on their websites. I really like them both. Feminine men make me quite happy. Let’s continue to break gender norms and challenge what society dictates a man should be. Real men obviously wear stockings and hella fierce makeup.
I wanted to mention that Valentin Perrin did not directly influence the poem I posted a while back on this blog. I just coincidentally picked that name for the poem because it fit and I didn’t want to use the guy’s real name for confidentiality purposes. However, I can say that since writing that poem, my relationship has grown substantially with a special guy. I think I might be in love, which is super exciting! It’s so weird because I have never felt this way before, but it’s amazing. 😀 Do you guys want to hear more about my love life? I feel like it’s a very different topic for me and pretty personal. Change is a good thing, though. Just let me know. 🙂 I promise to stay twisted. lol ❤
Themed photoshoots are one of my favorite ways to express creativity. I can become whoever or whatever I desire and escape reality for a bit. I really needed that escape this past weekend, so I got dolled up and started licking skulls. lol Let me give some background on the inspiration for this photoshoot.
I based the photos on the song and music video Blood by the metal band In This Moment. It’s been my favorite song for over a month and I knew I had to do something once I saw the video for it.
The lead singer of the band, Maria Brink, has quickly become one of my fashion icons. She’s like a Barbie who went to the darkside. I knew I needed to incorporate the color scheme of red, black, and white from the video and album art. My band T-shirt was also quite fitting. Thanks Hot Topic!
I couldn’t decide whether the lolli or the skull tasted better. 😉 I have to talk about the boots I used. I just got my Demonia Clash 430 boots in the mail the day before the shoot. The 3 and a half inch platforms (which are nothing for me :P) had been on my wishlist for a long time. I got them from this site called Sinister Soles, which has tons of other amazing gothic boots and shoes. And my skeleton necklace is too adorable not to highlight here.
So, that’s what I was up to this past weekend. I know I’ve been a bit of a mess as far as updating this blog. But, please know that I highly appreciate anyone who takes the time to be a part of this crazy reality I dwell in. I haven’t forgotten about any of my readers and I promise to start connecting with you all again. You guys allow me to be myself, free from judgment, and that seriously means everything to me. Lots of LOVE. ❤
I have loved all things Goth for years. I think I was drawn to the Gothic subculture because it’s so unique and beautiful. Naturally, I started incorporating elements of Goth fashion into my own wardrobe. People took notice and began asking if I was Goth. My response: Not quite a Goth. I’m a BubbleGoth. That response usually gets a laugh and a puzzled expression. BubbleGoth is definitely new and not very well-known. I understand why people would be curious to learn more about it. So, let’s jump into the world of gas-masked teddy bears and pastel-colored bats!
BubbleGoth was created a couple of years ago by singer/songwriter Kerli. Many people started to call her Goth after her first album came out due to its dark lyrics and spooky visuals. Trying to be offensive, one critic called her Bubblegum Goth. Kerli thought that was genius and explained her perfectly. BubbleGoth was born! According to Kerli, it is all about making dark things beautiful and beautiful things dark. Bubble is the sweet and innocent side while Goth is twisted and dark. Pairing a white wedding dress with combat boots would fall under BubbleGoth. You take polar opposites and blend them together to create something magical. It’s a total contradiction, but BubbleGoth isn’t meant to be taken super seriously. It’s all about having fun with fashion and individuality is key.
Cybergoth seems to have a huge influence on BubbleGoth. Gas masks, neon colors, and dreadlocks are all a part of both fashion styles. BubbleGoth isn’t as harsh looking, though. Rave fashion is also included in BubbleGoth. We love kandi bracelets and furry boots. Of course, we have to Goth it up. Ravers are a bit too colorful for BubbleGoth.
BubbleGoth highly values creativity and originality. We make a lot of the stuff we wear ourselves because you can’t find it in a store. For instance, I took a pair of black leather boots and glued rhinestones, bows, and lace to them for a cute touch. It would seem like those things wouldn’t go together, but they turned out really pretty. I also did a BubbleGoth ring tutorial not that long ago which I will link here. Why spend a lot of money on designer clothes when you can make a totally unique piece for super cheap? DIY projects are a huge part of BubbleGoth and everyone’s ideas are welcome.
I have heard that some are offended by BubbleGoth and Pastel Goth, which is sort of similar to BubbleGoth, but it involves pastel colors mixed with Goth elements. I’m certainly not trying to offend anyone by the way that I dress. I completely adore and respect the Gothic subculture. BubbleGoth is not a movement to make fun of Goth. We simply twist Goth fashion in a playful way. Everyone should dress the way they want and keep an open mind when it comes to personal style.
I would kill for those pink spiky flats! Definitely BubbleGoth. Anyways, I hope I have thoroughly explained BubbleGoth and shown how enjoyable it can be. I used to despise labels, but I gladly refer to myself as a BubbleGoth. We’ll keep on decapitating teddy bears everywhere. 😉
I’m slightly embarrassed to admit that Hot Topic is one of my favorite stores to shop at. But, obviously that didn’t stop me from recently buying $400 worth of stuff there. Let me show you my haul!
Unboxing goodies is so exciting! I love getting packages in the mail.
~WARPAINT Frost Bite Eye Kohl Pen: $1.99
~WARPAINT Bubblegum Lip Syrup: $1.99
~WARPAINT Party Pink Shimmer Eye Shadow: $1.99
~WARPAINT Grimace Lip Gloss: $1.99
~Manic Panic Immortal (Black) Nail Polish: $5.00
~Color Fiend Hot Pink Temporary Comb In Color: $1.99
~Color Fiend Electric Blue Temporary Comb In Color: $1.99
~Pink Bling Bow Hair Clips: $5.25
~Bling Skull Chain Headband: $4.75
~The Nightmare Before Christmas Bat Bling Necklace: $3.99
~Large Silver Link Heart Necklace: $18.50
~Too Fast Corset Cameo Scissor Necklace: $29.50
~Too Fast Spider Web Ring: $3.25
~Black/Red Corset Wrist Cuff: $12.50
~Lip Service Black Vinyl Cone Stud Zip Wallet: $16.98
~Sailor Moon Brooch: $12.50
~Skull Chain Belt: $19.50
~Neon Hotpink Fishnet Tights: $8.00
JET Blue Distressed Large Pyramid Stud Cut-Off Short Shorts: $24.50
Skull Zipper Bandeau Bra: $9.50
Rainbow Tulle Petticoat: $19.50 (It doesn’t fit! Why must I have large thighs? Should I get super ghetto and cut the elastic to make it fit? Or return it? It’s just so pretty!)
Ke$ha Electric Tiger T-Shirt: $8.97 (I’ll get sleazy for a super cheap shirt)
Lip Service Blacklist Ruffle Shrug: $39.50
Lip Service Black Safety Pin Cold-Shoulder Top: $34.50
Teenage Runaway Royal Blue Pyramid Stud Top: $26.50
I also bought my sister a DVD for her birthday. I justified buying tons of crap for myself by getting her something. Who doesn’t love Adventure Time though?