Carpe Nocturne Magazine Winter Issue


Carpe Nocturne Winter 2015

The Winter issue of the magazine is finally out and that means you guys can read my articles on musicians Miss FD (pg. 66-68) and Too Dead To Die (pg. 80-81) by following the link below:

You can also buy a print copy here:

I’m really happy with how the articles came out. Let me know what you think. I appreciate it! ❤

Mostly Good and Slightly Bad News


I disappeared for a bit. I wanted to blog, but I was in a nasty fog of depression. I feel better now. Not awesome, but I’m okay. I also seem to only be able to focus on one thing at a time in my life. I accept that I’ll always kind of be a mess.

Now, I have some awesome, exciting news…and some bad news to share. Let’s get the bad stuff out of the way first. About three weeks ago, I walked out of my full-time job and never went back. A lot led up to this decision and I never could have imagined what happened. I’m sure I’ve mentioned how unhappy I was at my job. I never wanted it in the first place. I paid my dues in order to transfer within the agency after 6 months. It was hell, but I made it. I applied to 4 internal jobs and never even got an interview, however. That was odd, since my entire team had nothing but positive things to say about me. And then shit really got bad. Half our team got laid off at the end of September (which was really shitty and upsetting) and I absorbed all the duties of the other administrative assistant. This included attending meetings in the most dangerous part of the county for the sole purpose of taking notes. Wow, I feel so valued. I was pissed and called off sick a day and a half to avoid these meetings. As payback, my direct supervisor (who works at another agency…weird, I know) sent me to represent our team at a meeting I’d never heard of or been to before in another dangerous area. The war was on. I planned on going to the meeting, but I told my agency supervisor (who never helped me or did anything but sign my timesheet, if that) that I’d had enough and needed to meet with her. She set a meeting with me a little before the time I was supposed to attend the payback meeting. I told my direct supervisor I might not be able to make it to the payback meeting on time as I had a meeting with my other supervisor to attend because I was feeling overwhelmed and so my demise began. It got really ugly.

So, I attend the payback meeting in Detroit and then go to the county to work on a special project I supposedly couldn’t work on at my actual work site. Really, it was just a ploy to piss me off further because everyone knew I hated going down there. I go to the 8th floor and enter my supervisor’s office. I ask her for the project she wanted me to work on. She proceeds to ask me if I want to meet with her and her supervisor to discuss my feelings about my additional job duties. I say no. She keeps pushing the question in her fake, smug way. I tell her I don’t care if I lose this job and that a meeting won’t make a difference. Wrong thing to say.

My direct supervisor called my agency supervisor and told her what I said. An investigation was conducted and I was grilled by my agency supervisor over what I said. Two weeks later, at a meeting between all three of us that was supposed to address my concerns, I was presented with a write up. It literally shocked me. I was reprimanded solely to prevent me from transferring within the agency. That’s how vindictive these people are. They knew from the beginning I wanted to do something else and this was their way of keeping me. I lost it. Through tears, I gave my two week notice of resignation. Of course, they begged me to stay.  They’re lucky I didn’t tell them to suck my dick. Actually, if my mom hadn’t been employed by the same agency for 27 years, I would have.

The following Monday, I knew I had to leave without giving two weeks notice. I couldn’t even speak to these people after what they did to me. I quietly packed up my cube. No one passing by said a word, like that was new. I picked up my box of belongings and left. That was it. I was unemployed. There’s so much more to the story, but I won’t bore anyone with that novel.

I’ve been desperately applying to jobs ever since. I’ve only received one call for an interview, but I’m not sure about the position. I would be working with clients again, but there are cons, too. It’s a very stressful time. It’s also really nice to have some time off. Sleeping in has been lovely. Hopefully I land something good soon.

On to the awesome news: I am now a music writer for the alternative magazine Carpe Nocturne!!! Wow! I wrote two articles on artists Miss FD and Too Dead To Die for the Winter Issue that will come out in January. I couldn’t be more excited. Michael Jack, the music editor at Carpe Nocturne and fellow dark music blogger and friend here on WordPress, graciously offered to have me on board and I jumped at the opportunity. I think of it as taking my writing to the next level. There are even more ridiculously exciting things to come for the Spring Issue, but I won’t get Reckless and share the hot Gossip yet. 😉

I got the chance to talk with Miss FD and Too Dead To Die and they are seriously so sweet and appreciative. I had never heard of GothPop Princess Miss FD before writing about her for the magazine and I’m a huge fan now. She’s so versatile and crafts very meaningful lyrics. Love her dark visuals as well.

Too Dead To Die finally released the music video for “Another Sin” and it’s sexy and controversial.

I think that’s all the news I have for now. My next post will be more entertaining I hope. Love you guys!



Too Dead To Die


Andrey Deviance a.k.a. Too Dead To Die has crafted an electronic sound on his debut album “Murder On The Dance Floor” that can be described as both brutal and catchy. I believe I stumbled upon this guy a couple weeks ago on Spotify and have been entranced ever since. This album is jam-packed with danceable synth pop and fierce, but positive lyrics. The imagery conjured up with the album song titles is very dark, but the tracks themselves are fun and empowering. Fans of Aesthetic Perfection, Blood On The Dance Floor, and Ayria would enjoy Too Dead To Die.

Too Dead To Die

Andrey’s journey to music is pretty interesting. He comes from Russia and went to school to be an engineer. Instead of doing the sensible thing and becoming an engineer after he graduated college, Andrey decided to follow his dream of making music. I think that was a great idea. This album sounds like anarchy and anti-establishment, possibly stemming from Andrey’s rejection of corporate employment. My favorite song on this album, called “#Loud” (gotta love hashtags), is all about having your voice heard and fighting adversity with strength, not running away from your problems. Sadly, I can’t find this song posted anywhere, so I can’t share it. There are many positive messages such as this strewn throughout “Murder On The Dance Floor”.

Aw, “Nltl” talks about trying again and again and never giving up to reach your goals. Even sweeter when those lyrics are thrown against pulsating synths and followed up with Russian growls. Andrey has a way of showing both vulnerability and power in the same song. Imagine how hard that is when English isn’t your first language? My only complaint about this album is that I can’t understand the words sometimes through Andrey’s accent. I commend him for making an all English album. I wish I had a lyric book to follow, that’s all. I also love to collect physical copies of albums and his album isn’t even available in the U.S. So, I bought it electronically on Amazon. I really like to support new or unknown artists in any way I can.

Too Dead To Die 2

As with any musician I adore, I have to mention Andrey’s visuals. With his jet black hair, DIY skills, cyber gothy outfits, and use of skulls, spikes, gas masks, blood, and war imagery in his photos, Andrey is a lot like me. His first music video for “Another Sin” will be coming out soon and I’m excited to see these visuals come to life. You can see a smoking nun, dancing girls, and Andrey creepily holding a skull in the preview below. I can see from Andrey’s Instagram that he makes a lot of the props for his photos and such and I love that. He’s like a one man army. I think he looks similar to me, too. We’re both hot bitches. 😉

Too Dead To Die’s music could easily find its way into the music libraries of avid dance fans, Top 40 listeners, and cyber goths alike. “Murder On The Dance Floor” is a non-stop electronic assault that will get you singing along and stomping your Demonia boots. I personally use it as music for my workouts and it keeps me going strong all the way through. I’ll end this post with perhaps the lightest dance pop track on the album, called “The Only Summer”. Live in the moment and make this a great summer! And check out Too Dead To Die’s album! It’s perfect summer party music for us darker folks.